You know you love me. MadeGirl

I kissed ∆ last tuesday. I kissed ∆ for a whole song in that creepy bar and did not even enjoy it.

Why kiss ∆, if I do not even find it nice?
Why kiss ∆, if I love ?
Is cheating a proof of non-love?

I love . However, no matter who I tell about my cheating episode, the auto-reply I get is that "if you cheat, you ain't in love, hun". Aren't I, really? Is willing to kiss someone else the ultimate proof that I do not love? On the contrary, is the absence of desire for others a proof of love for the one to whom I am faithful?

I think not. I think sexual pulsions -or in my case: seduction pulsions- are not related to love in any way. I think not being able, or not willing to refrain physical pulsions is nothing but a proof of immaturity.

My first love, and the most powerful I have had to this day, meant the world to me. Had he proposed to me or asked me to follow him all the way to Argentina to go grow cauliflower, I would have accepted. I would have accepted anything had it meant being with him. However, I went to Barcelona one week and cheated on him there. I did not even care about the other guy. I just needed to see the effect I could have on other men. I did not try to fight these pulsions, which was immature. There was no sign of an absence of love in that episode, however. I was not betraying the one I loved. I was being eighteen.

I am tired of these unwritten rules people refer to all the time, in order to judge you.
I think the very concept of these rules is a fraud.
I think there are not any rules in this matter.
I think there is not even one definition to it.

We all know at least one couple defying all the rules we can think of, a couple we just do not understand. I want every one of us to stop basing all their judgements on their own experience. There are things in this world far too great for the human mind to explain, or judge for that matter.

-A.C